ladyjrenisa's Xanga

Come on! Lets Rock and Roll @ Rainhouse, Taiping, Perak

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 09:16:47 GMT

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 09:52:02 GMT

Terperangkap - Joanna & Co.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 07:34:42 GMT

Oh me and my tantrum! If i was a southpark character, I'd be exactly like this.I'd be high on menopause pills and Cartman would have met his match! Haha....

You know you see a pop princess when u see this outfit! hahahaha.

Tis' is true

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 07:29:55 GMT

I feel like my life has come to a dead end.

there u go dhaz. all updated. are u happy now?

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 12:32:10 GMT

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 12:29:47 GMT

A song for Sergei

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 02:52:03 GMT

"Here goes another significant event in my life. My name is Yevgeniya . No no, you have to pronounce it as "yehv-GYE-nee-yah". Don't spit in my face, moron. My nickname is Zhenya. I am russian. I swear on my mother's life most of the time, even if I lie. It is weird that I am able to speak fluent english because I am russian. People are always amazed with my knowleadge in the English Language.

I am in love with Sergei with all of my heart and I know he loves me too. Sergei is my other half. I've waited 14 years of my life for my Sergei. He feeds me drama because I am a drama queen. He is the muse to all of my songs. He holds me tight and never lets go. Some even say that it is an obsession. We are obsessed with each other. He loves to see me dance and I love to see him stroke his long straight hair. Secretly,I frame that moment everytime he comes into mind. I love being around him no matter how much he test my patients and faith. Yes, he is possesive. Some even told him to keep me in a treasure chest but its okay. I love being his treasure and I love it that he doesn't want to share me. And people kept saying "Zhenya, that is just infatuation." I'll smile and just shake all these comments off. I am in love with Sergei and there is nothing or no one that can interfere with the way I felt for my dearest.

3 years passed for me and Sergei. I am now a rabel. The more he wants to keep me near him, the more I push him away. I can't breathe with him cutting down my air supply. I am not allowed to be friends with other boys. I was not allowed to be close to my brothers. Oh dear Sergei, you are only pushing me further and further. I can't seem to let you go though.. Is it love now? I'm just a little scared to go into the world and experience what's out there because I am in my comfort zone with my Sergei.

Now I'm alone. He left me. He is in a foreign land focusing on his career.I'm lost. I don't know where to go.

I have to start a new life. My life is going the way I want it to go. Smooth and steady. I can make jokes again. I can. I swear on my mother's life. I try to heal the pain but the stain refuse to be removed. I just have to let it be.

He came back. He wants me now. No, he wants me as a friend but we made love yesterday but I am just his friend. He wants nothing more than friendship. I have to give the space he is requesting. Sacrificing the one you love is more than a selfless deed. I am lost again and I need to be found again. I need Sergei to know that is no other obsession better than this obsession. I am addicted to Sergei. Come back Sergei."

Note: Sergei is a funny name for a manly character. What an oxymoron.

Joanna Snicketies and the Fortunate Events

Wed, 30 May 2007 09:00:15 GMT

One word to describe my practical training: HELLOFUN. Wich bassically means Hell of Fun. Which also means it was hell but it was fun. I met so many "nice" people.

Here are some photos:

Emma, Me and Alia at Press Club, Media Night

My daily entertainment. Who needs TV?

Dhaz and Me @ F1

Andy Nana @ F1

Emz, Mich, Me, Alia and Dhaz

Visitors from Phillipines at the EDR

Dafi and me at AF5 Final concert

3 important things I always forget.

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 09:52:27 GMT

1. My parking ticket. I ALWAYS leave it in the car.

2. I ALWAYS forget birthdays.

3. I ALWAYS forget that life is short.

-in loving memory of seaport's 2002 Golden Boy : Muhammad Haziq Ng bin Abdullah a.k.a Nicholas Ng.
Semoga Allah S.W.T. meringankan seksa atasmu.

Saya Sebatang Pen

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 14:13:23 GMT

I can't see my future. I am a control freak for this. I'm scared that I'll never be good enough for my parents. I've never been good enough for any of the guys I've dated. And most importantly, I will never be good enough for me. I have to let loose. I should stop thinking of other peoples perception about me.
If you ask me, I won't be able to tell you where I see myself in 10 years. I don't think I can even tell you where I see myself tomorrow. I try to organize and plan my time but that doesn't really mean that I'll be doing something meaningful. It's like I know from 12 - 1 I will be in the comm lab doing that dreamweaver shit, but I don't really know if I'll benefit anything from it, or if I'll be using that shitty thing in the future. All I know is I have to be there to learn shit.
I've got so many decisions to make. Leo Burnett? or Astro? Stay? or Go? Australia? Malaysia, U.K or U.S? Mr. A? or Mr. B? Forgive? or Stay Mad? Sing? or Study?

I'm going out of my mind.
3 more things i have to decide on - GVSU, Michigan. American International University at O.C,California. And Chapman University, MA. COZ I GOT EM' BAYBEE~!!!!
CHOICES CHOICES CHOICES!